If I Should Fall

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If I Should Fall, a novel by Heather Nadine Lenz

Reviews of If I Should Fall be Heather Nadine Lenz

5.0 out of 5 stars – A Delight to Read

“If I Should Fall by Heather Nadine Lenz is a Christian fiction novel with powerful existential themes and great characters. The story begins with the protagonist, Charlotte, waking up to the sound of the alarm clock and reaching out to cuddle the man who isn’t any longer by her side. The reader is immediately introduced to Charlotte’s problematic life, a conflict that escalates with the discovery that she has “stage four pancreatic cancer with liver metastasis.”

Charlotte chooses to make the most out of her life, living with purpose and accomplishing what she’s left to do with utmost commitment. But what is life worth? Can she keep her faith in the midst of so many challenges? What makes matters worse for her is that something is standing in her way – can she muster the courage to forgive, to embrace her inner freedom, and follow the path of faith? Here is a book that explores spiritual values and the question of faith and suffering. Can one continue to walk on the path of faith when everything seems to be falling apart? The story is well-crafted and the reader can connect with the protagonist easily.

5.0 out of 5 stars – I Could Give 1,000 Stars

Aisha-Kimberly Hashmi February 16, 2018

Charlotte is a character who is very real — a woman with questions that many readers ask, including the mystery of suffering, the justice of God, and the power of forgiveness. The conflict is mostly internal and it has great psychological complications. Heather Nadine Lenz’s prose is beautiful and it is filled with insightful passages that are very revealing of human nature and the anatomy of suffering. If I Should Fall is both inspiring and entertaining, a real delight to read.”

This is my review of the book, “If I should Fall”, by Heather Nadine Lenz, the kindle edition,. I read this in one sitting, After receiving a devastating diagnosis of pancreatic cancer and liver metastasis, already in the fourth stage just weeks before Christmas, Charlotte has to come to terms with what will happen to her small children, how to forgive, as well as achieve all she can before her time is up. This is well written and the characters are easy to empathize with and relate to. Plot is sad and uplifting at the same time. Fast paced, yet slow enough to let you absorb each and every detail in full. This is dealt with in such a human way, honest, raw and yet I have been through this ordeal personally with three people I have loved deeply in my life. It is hard, tragic and yet at the same time i know that this gritty honesty is exactly on target with all I went through. I can highly recommend this book to anyone who, like me, has faced, or may be facing, loosing someone or who has been diagnosed with a similar issue.


5.0 out of 5 stars – A Drama That Kept Me to the Edge

Jose Popoff February 20, 2018

I loved this story from beginning to end. It switches intensities and takes you through this roller coaster of excitement, sadness, desperation, and fear. I am sure that many of us can relate to Charlotte and what she went through. I find this story absolutely engrossing to the point where I could not put it down.

I am a born-again Christian, however, the reading of the novel does not have an intense religious view so it can be enjoyed by pretty much anyone, regardless of your beliefs.

The novel tells the story of Charlotte, a woman with two kids and a cheating husband (ok, to be fair, it was a one-night thing and he does not even remember, apparently). I especially love stories that get entangled as they keep my interest and peak curiosity on how the heck is this going to unravel. This book gave me that feeling of ‘desperation’ to know how things are going to end.


5.0 out of 5 stars – A Wonderful Story

“Faith is tough on a normal day, so what do you do when your marriage is falling apart, and your world is shattered with a diagnosis of Stage Four pancreatic cancer? Charlotte learns the hard way in If I Should Fall by Heather Nadine Lenz. She’s worked hard to create the perfect home, the perfect life, and the perfect family, but it started to come unraveled when her husband had an affair.

She struggles to keep her psychiatry practice in line, stay in contact with her family, care for her two small children, and deal with the gossip in the small town of McCall, Idaho. The cancer diagnosis not only brings Charlotte pain and doubt, but leads her to struggles with forgiveness and mercy as she unexpectedly faces her final days. When her sister finds a new love interest who charms the family but gives Charlotte bad vibes, doubt starts to creep in, leaving Charlotte to question everything, including herself, her faith, and her belief in God. I read this book in two days because I couldn’t put it down.

I lost three friends to cancer in an eighteen-month period (two to pancreatic, and one to lung cancer), so this book called to me and particularly touched me. I love how Heather Nadine Lenz deals with mortality and death so honestly, much like my friends did. Their struggles and reconciliation of faith in their final days not only confirmed my own faith, but inspired me with strength and courage so that I can truly face all things through Christ. This book reminded me of those lessons, while telling a touching story of life, death, forgiveness, mercy, and redemption. If you’re looking for a Christmas novel for yourself or to gift to a friend that will inspire, teach, and encourage you to find blessings in everyday life, then If I Should Fall is a great pick.

Bless you, Heather, for writing and sharing this wonderful story, and for opening our eyes to a bigger reality that we tend to blind ourselves to in our own walk through every day.”

5.0 out of 5 stars – Will Inspire You & Strengthen Your Faith

“What would you do if you suddenly discovered that you have stage four pancreatic cancer and liver metastasis? After losing her man, Charlotte discovers, to her great shock, that she has stage four cancer. It is a turning point in her life as she wrestles with questions of faith, life, and meaning. She has to determine how to spend her last days, to remain firm in her faith, and to do work that really matters. The only problem is that someone stands in her way.

Follow her story as she seeks answers. If I Should Fall by Heather Nadine Lenz is a story of love and faith, a story imbued with a powerful sense of humanity and compelling characters. This is a very inspiring story with a protagonist that readers will easily identify with. Charlotte is no different from the ordinary woman who has to worry about paying her bills and putting food on the table. But when she discovers that she has a terminal illness, she, like anyone, is tempted to give in to despair.

She is someone who has been broken and who seeks healing. But can she heal without facing the one person who has hurt her the most? If I Should Fall is a story of faith, of one woman’s journey of hope amidst great difficulties. The setting comes out clearly, with details masterfully woven into the story. The writing features great dialogues and the reader has the feeling that the story is unfolding before their gaze, just so naturally. Heather Nadine Lenz’s characters are memorable and well-developed and the plot is a gripping one. Charlotte is a character who will remind readers of their own human struggles and questions of faith. This story will inspire you and strengthen your faith.”